Still for you young boy..

Killing Me Inside-Tormented


For the last time
You waste my tears now
No more torment
But don’t just say you’ve gone away

You tell a fuckin’ tale
(Swallow me and spit me out)
How do I get trought of this?
(I can’t stand it anymore)

Can, you, see, me…
Smiling when I sing this song
Right, now…
I just want to be alive

You know I was dying when you told me
That I’m not yours anymore
You know I was dying when you told me
You’re just playing and fooling around with me

When the time he comes and wakes me
he comes and wakes me
And when he bit my lips and kissed me there
And when he holds my hand and lives my life tonight
Live tonight
When he said that he really loves me
Were the worst fucking days

I’m dying and bleeding of my past
I’m dying and bleeding of my past
Now slit my throat and let me bleed
Now slit my throat and let me bleed

Can, you, see, me…
Smiling when I sing this song
Right, now…
I just want to be alive

You know I was dying when you told me
That I’m not yours anymore
You know I was dying when you told me
You’re just playing and fooling around with me

When the time he comes and wakes me
he comes and wakes me
And when he bit my lips and kissed me there
And when he holds my hand and lives my life tonight
Live tonight
When he said that he really loves me

But suddenly you came to me, and begged me to be yours again
Right now you’re holding my hand but sorry baby, but all I can say is
No, hell no…!!!

Can you see the times grows older
he blew my dreams away
It’s all done, the time is over
I don’t know how to say to you
Can you see the times grows older he blew my dreams away
It’s all done, the time is over
I don’t know how to say

The time is over!!!
The time, *to say* NO!!!

Dedicated for the unfaithful-young-boy

Thank You. for you, Boy..
if You think You will be happy enough, then you are totally definitely wrong.
You have no idea what will happen cause you are dealing with someone like ME.
No. i'm not gonna give you a revenge.
i'll turn your blue sky into the darkest one.
just wait ;)

catch you later,
Nad-

Vanilla twilight by Owl city

Songs writer: Adam Young

The stars lean down to kiss you
And i lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
'cause i'll doze off safe and soundly
But i'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you dear
'cause i wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad
Till i look at my hands and feel sad
'cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though i haven't slept in two days
'cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone
But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because when i think of you
I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone

As many times as i blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again
And i'll forget the world that i knew
But i swear i won't forget you
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past
i'd whisper in your ear
oh darling i wish you were here..



-one of my fave songs, owl city rules!-

Dedicated to my Lifetime friends..

selamat malam semuanya,
senaaaaangg, akhirnya blogger bisa tampil 'normal' jadi gw bisa ngetik dg 'normal' pula :)
5 days to my BIRTHDAY! bau2 angka 21 udah deket nih, angka keramat!
kenapa? karena telornya udah pecah diawal kepala 2 ini. aih gue semakin tua aja..

tapi gak berasa karena gue masih punya TEMAN-TEMAN yang setia menemani gue dari umur gue masih belasan taun, ketika gue merasa senang karena punya jerawat. aneh sih, tapi dulu yang ada dipikiran gue adalah, punya jerawat means dewasa, udah gede, dan keren karena gue bisa make BIORE-produk orang dewasa!hehehe
Muthia, Fita, Mentari, Ajeng, Adel, Nokik, Ovik - High School Buddies! mereka yang memberikan warna dalam masa SMA a.k.a reamaja gue. mereka saksi hidup transformasi kehidupan gue, dari jaman cupu2nya, sampe jaman umm..sedikit cupu seperti sekarang..hehe..
mereka temen gila gue, teman terbaik dalam hidup gue, bagian dari catatan sejarah gue yang selalu hadir disetiap cerita-cerita kenangan masa lalu dan semoga menjadi bagian dr masa depan gue juga :))
Konflik, drama, canda, tawa, tangisan, haru-biru, pertengkaran, perang dingin..hmm semuanya udah kita alami. Tapi apapun yg kita pernah alami, apapun yg pernah kita rasakan, apapun yg pernah kita saling bicarakan, seberapun jauh jarak antara kita, kita tetap TEMAN :))

mereka semua, sexylicious ataupun bukan, sendok mencari garpu atau bukan, teman nan menawan ataupun bukan, mereka adalah anugerah yang diberikan oleh Allah swt dalam kehidupan gue selama ini, mereka yang melukiskan warna di kanvas hidup gue..gue mungkin bukan teman sebaik mereka, tapi mereka adalah teman terbaik gue :))

jadi ingettt, waktu mau ulang taun ke 17, si sexylicious mau memberikan surprais seperti biasanya, tapi ternyata gagal karena gue lagi kabur ke singapore dan memutuskan hubungan telfon dengan indonesia *mau menyepi ceritanya* and you know what? my 17th was great! i've got what i want walopun cuma dirayain di apartment kak ernis dengan meniup lilin yang diambil dr kamar mandi..tapi berkesan sekali ketika saya pulang ke rumah sudah ada tart dan a lil present from my best friends :))

i love you guys, and i really mean it!
gue gak berencana nulis ini, tiba2 aja jadi random..hehehe..
happy 2009 teman-teman:))
Nad-

Songs in a lyric

Taylor Swift-Crazier

I never gone with the wind, just let it flow
Let it takes me where it wants to go
‘till you open the door
There’s so much more
I never ween it before..
I was trying to fly but i couldn’t find wings
But you came along and changed everything
You lift my feet off the ground, You spin me around..
You make me crazier, crazier..
Feels like i’m falling and i.. i’m lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier..
I watched from a distance as you made life your own
Every sky was your own kind of blue
And i wanted to know,
How that would feel and you made it so real
You showed me something that i couldn’t see
You opened my eyes and you made me believe
You lift my feet off the ground, You spin me around..
You make me crazier, crazier..
Feels like i’m falling and i.. i’m lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier..
Baby, you showed me what living is for
I don’t wanna hide anymore

let the story begin: Nadine's diary..

Hi all,
I’ve been so busy lately with my assignment and my holiday. But i would like to say thanks to Blackberry, so i could produce a-damn-sucks-story about a girl. I write it every nite before i sleep. This girl named Nadine. If you want to know more about Nadine, just chek my Blog and i’ll keep you updated. Well, i found Nadine’s diary and she wrote this in page 5:


Now, this writing is belongs to You
I hope you understand this:
For all the memories that we've been through, for all the laugh, jokes, dream, and imagination, I need you to know that I feel so comfortable when You walk beside me, when You sit near me, when You ask me all your-stupid-silly question, when we sang together, when we ran together, ate together, and played together. I feel so warm in the middle of a-very-cold weather, I don't want to fall asleep cause I don't wanna end our stupid conversation..I don't wanna let You go..and I really hate when you have to leave me alone with those unforgettable memories. But now I understand, I'm only your spring and you are gonna find your summer..and it's not me, thx for all our experience!

And for Him,
He never know and never will..
I want him to know the truth, but he left me. He is gone. I couldn't find him anymore. And all of sudden, he came to me..ask me where I am..
Oh,where the hell are you when I tried so hard to fix this heart?
He want to meet me after everything that he did. Unfortunately, I never have the strength to stay away from him even in a dream :(
And I'll wait till that day what happen again, do I have the same feelings as I have before?
Until now, I think I love him..
Welcome home my sunny sun, welcome home beybiy, welcome home my true home..
I'll be waiting for him till our day come to Us..

The last goes to the Boy,
Dear my Boy, yes MY..I used to called the Boy mine.
Thank you for the love, thank you for caring me, thank you for understand me well. Sorry..
Can't say anything beside thanks and sorry..
Maybe you are the one OR the only one for me? I don't know..but I hope you get the best in your life, boy..

A late nite story by a young spontaneous lady,
Nad-

december girl :)

Hello december!
You belong with me. the one and only dear December..hihi.. sounds selfish sih..but i was born in december, soo i am going to meet my birthday soon..hihi..

2009 bentar lagi selesai and lets prepare to say hello 2010! hmm semoga tahun 2010 menjadi tahunnya gue. Aminn..

apapun itu, gw sangat bersyukur atas semua pengalaman yang telah gue dapatkan di tahun 2009. pengalaman berharga yang setidaknya merubah gw secara personal. pengalaman bertemu orang2 baru, orang2 lama, pokoknya semuanya deh! Thx God, couldnt ask for more deh pokoknya!

december-smile 2009,
Nad-