Still for you young boy..

Killing Me Inside-Tormented


For the last time
You waste my tears now
No more torment
But don’t just say you’ve gone away

You tell a fuckin’ tale
(Swallow me and spit me out)
How do I get trought of this?
(I can’t stand it anymore)

Can, you, see, me…
Smiling when I sing this song
Right, now…
I just want to be alive

You know I was dying when you told me
That I’m not yours anymore
You know I was dying when you told me
You’re just playing and fooling around with me

When the time he comes and wakes me
he comes and wakes me
And when he bit my lips and kissed me there
And when he holds my hand and lives my life tonight
Live tonight
When he said that he really loves me
Were the worst fucking days

I’m dying and bleeding of my past
I’m dying and bleeding of my past
Now slit my throat and let me bleed
Now slit my throat and let me bleed

Can, you, see, me…
Smiling when I sing this song
Right, now…
I just want to be alive

You know I was dying when you told me
That I’m not yours anymore
You know I was dying when you told me
You’re just playing and fooling around with me

When the time he comes and wakes me
he comes and wakes me
And when he bit my lips and kissed me there
And when he holds my hand and lives my life tonight
Live tonight
When he said that he really loves me

But suddenly you came to me, and begged me to be yours again
Right now you’re holding my hand but sorry baby, but all I can say is
No, hell no…!!!

Can you see the times grows older
he blew my dreams away
It’s all done, the time is over
I don’t know how to say to you
Can you see the times grows older he blew my dreams away
It’s all done, the time is over
I don’t know how to say

The time is over!!!
The time, *to say* NO!!!

Dedicated for the unfaithful-young-boy

Thank You. for you, Boy..
if You think You will be happy enough, then you are totally definitely wrong.
You have no idea what will happen cause you are dealing with someone like ME.
No. i'm not gonna give you a revenge.
i'll turn your blue sky into the darkest one.
just wait ;)

catch you later,
Nad-

Vanilla twilight by Owl city

Songs writer: Adam Young

The stars lean down to kiss you
And i lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
'cause i'll doze off safe and soundly
But i'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you dear
'cause i wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad
Till i look at my hands and feel sad
'cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though i haven't slept in two days
'cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone
But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because when i think of you
I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone

As many times as i blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again
And i'll forget the world that i knew
But i swear i won't forget you
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past
i'd whisper in your ear
oh darling i wish you were here..



-one of my fave songs, owl city rules!-

Dedicated to my Lifetime friends..

selamat malam semuanya,
senaaaaangg, akhirnya blogger bisa tampil 'normal' jadi gw bisa ngetik dg 'normal' pula :)
5 days to my BIRTHDAY! bau2 angka 21 udah deket nih, angka keramat!
kenapa? karena telornya udah pecah diawal kepala 2 ini. aih gue semakin tua aja..

tapi gak berasa karena gue masih punya TEMAN-TEMAN yang setia menemani gue dari umur gue masih belasan taun, ketika gue merasa senang karena punya jerawat. aneh sih, tapi dulu yang ada dipikiran gue adalah, punya jerawat means dewasa, udah gede, dan keren karena gue bisa make BIORE-produk orang dewasa!hehehe
Muthia, Fita, Mentari, Ajeng, Adel, Nokik, Ovik - High School Buddies! mereka yang memberikan warna dalam masa SMA a.k.a reamaja gue. mereka saksi hidup transformasi kehidupan gue, dari jaman cupu2nya, sampe jaman umm..sedikit cupu seperti sekarang..hehe..
mereka temen gila gue, teman terbaik dalam hidup gue, bagian dari catatan sejarah gue yang selalu hadir disetiap cerita-cerita kenangan masa lalu dan semoga menjadi bagian dr masa depan gue juga :))
Konflik, drama, canda, tawa, tangisan, haru-biru, pertengkaran, perang dingin..hmm semuanya udah kita alami. Tapi apapun yg kita pernah alami, apapun yg pernah kita rasakan, apapun yg pernah kita saling bicarakan, seberapun jauh jarak antara kita, kita tetap TEMAN :))

mereka semua, sexylicious ataupun bukan, sendok mencari garpu atau bukan, teman nan menawan ataupun bukan, mereka adalah anugerah yang diberikan oleh Allah swt dalam kehidupan gue selama ini, mereka yang melukiskan warna di kanvas hidup gue..gue mungkin bukan teman sebaik mereka, tapi mereka adalah teman terbaik gue :))

jadi ingettt, waktu mau ulang taun ke 17, si sexylicious mau memberikan surprais seperti biasanya, tapi ternyata gagal karena gue lagi kabur ke singapore dan memutuskan hubungan telfon dengan indonesia *mau menyepi ceritanya* and you know what? my 17th was great! i've got what i want walopun cuma dirayain di apartment kak ernis dengan meniup lilin yang diambil dr kamar mandi..tapi berkesan sekali ketika saya pulang ke rumah sudah ada tart dan a lil present from my best friends :))

i love you guys, and i really mean it!
gue gak berencana nulis ini, tiba2 aja jadi random..hehehe..
happy 2009 teman-teman:))
Nad-

Songs in a lyric

Taylor Swift-Crazier

I never gone with the wind, just let it flow
Let it takes me where it wants to go
‘till you open the door
There’s so much more
I never ween it before..
I was trying to fly but i couldn’t find wings
But you came along and changed everything
You lift my feet off the ground, You spin me around..
You make me crazier, crazier..
Feels like i’m falling and i.. i’m lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier..
I watched from a distance as you made life your own
Every sky was your own kind of blue
And i wanted to know,
How that would feel and you made it so real
You showed me something that i couldn’t see
You opened my eyes and you made me believe
You lift my feet off the ground, You spin me around..
You make me crazier, crazier..
Feels like i’m falling and i.. i’m lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier..
Baby, you showed me what living is for
I don’t wanna hide anymore

let the story begin: Nadine's diary..

Hi all,
I’ve been so busy lately with my assignment and my holiday. But i would like to say thanks to Blackberry, so i could produce a-damn-sucks-story about a girl. I write it every nite before i sleep. This girl named Nadine. If you want to know more about Nadine, just chek my Blog and i’ll keep you updated. Well, i found Nadine’s diary and she wrote this in page 5:


Now, this writing is belongs to You
I hope you understand this:
For all the memories that we've been through, for all the laugh, jokes, dream, and imagination, I need you to know that I feel so comfortable when You walk beside me, when You sit near me, when You ask me all your-stupid-silly question, when we sang together, when we ran together, ate together, and played together. I feel so warm in the middle of a-very-cold weather, I don't want to fall asleep cause I don't wanna end our stupid conversation..I don't wanna let You go..and I really hate when you have to leave me alone with those unforgettable memories. But now I understand, I'm only your spring and you are gonna find your summer..and it's not me, thx for all our experience!

And for Him,
He never know and never will..
I want him to know the truth, but he left me. He is gone. I couldn't find him anymore. And all of sudden, he came to me..ask me where I am..
Oh,where the hell are you when I tried so hard to fix this heart?
He want to meet me after everything that he did. Unfortunately, I never have the strength to stay away from him even in a dream :(
And I'll wait till that day what happen again, do I have the same feelings as I have before?
Until now, I think I love him..
Welcome home my sunny sun, welcome home beybiy, welcome home my true home..
I'll be waiting for him till our day come to Us..

The last goes to the Boy,
Dear my Boy, yes MY..I used to called the Boy mine.
Thank you for the love, thank you for caring me, thank you for understand me well. Sorry..
Can't say anything beside thanks and sorry..
Maybe you are the one OR the only one for me? I don't know..but I hope you get the best in your life, boy..

A late nite story by a young spontaneous lady,
Nad-

december girl :)

Hello december!
You belong with me. the one and only dear December..hihi.. sounds selfish sih..but i was born in december, soo i am going to meet my birthday soon..hihi..

2009 bentar lagi selesai and lets prepare to say hello 2010! hmm semoga tahun 2010 menjadi tahunnya gue. Aminn..

apapun itu, gw sangat bersyukur atas semua pengalaman yang telah gue dapatkan di tahun 2009. pengalaman berharga yang setidaknya merubah gw secara personal. pengalaman bertemu orang2 baru, orang2 lama, pokoknya semuanya deh! Thx God, couldnt ask for more deh pokoknya!

december-smile 2009,
Nad-

yeay, finally..i could update my blog!
lotta things to tell..but dont have time..well, SELAMAT HARI RAYA IDUL ADHA everyone!

hear you soon!
Nad-

what to do?

the trimester 3 is just begin. i dont understand.hm..what to do what to do..

a lil-catch-up-time

i've been so busy lately..
i couldnt write in my blog like usual :(
well, lots of things happen. including my obsession!
ahh..got to goo..
smell ya later!

kiss-Nad

internship

capek. hehe. :))

an(other).lil.pics.pieces of mind.

Packing.

im going home in the next 9 1/2 hours..
yeah, feel so excited yet sad. im gonna miss melbie with its story.
my story, my memory, my life, my everything :)
i'll move to another place. and later, maybe i'll move on...
really cant wait to see my family and friends!
-naD.

sebel.tee hee.

dont force me to do something i dont wanna do.
males.males.males.males.males.males.males.males.
i dont even know what i wanna do at the moment.
sebel.sebel.sebel.sebel.sebel.sebel.sebel.sebel.
so please, just be patient.
males.males.males.males.males.
i cant make any decision rite NOW!
sebel.sebel.sebel.sebel.sebel.sebel.
understand me just this once.
and.
im begging you to stay now,
please..
for God sake,
please understand me...

dream

i've done my exam!
yeayy..
this time supposed to be my happy time. but i dont know why, i feel a bit empty. my head full of my own dream.
yeah, call me a dream-imaginary-girl :)
cant explain how i feel today..only one word : D.R.E.A.M!!
sleepy mee,
Nad-

Melbourne Rawks!!

on our way to Mornington Peninsula with All RAN members and Carnaval Soundnation's committee

Hi all,
im counting down the days when i go back to Indonesia..yihaaaa :))

cant wait to see all my friends back home!!

im not in the mood to write anything,

smell ya all later :)

Nad-

airport

seketika itu juga, gw benci airport.
bangunan itu bisa bikin gw seneng tapi bisa bikin gw sedih setengah mati.

29.09.2009
hari itu telah tiba.
hari yang dulunya sangat gw nanti2kan..
hari mengantar RAN dan NIDJI pulang ke indo.
tapi,
seminggu bareng mereka, dari pagi sampe pagi lagi..
bikin gw ngerasa kehilangan teman2 yang baiiikkk banget..
capek gw gak berasa.
assignment gw apalagi..
we've been through everything together..
shopping di city, shoot clip kebekuan di mt.buller, bbq d mornington, maen casino d crown,semuanyaaa deh pokoknya..

every lil things in melben remind me of something..

i've learned many things guys..


Airport- Tullamarine- Melbourne telah mempertemukan kita semua..
dan..
Dari sini pula semua berawal dan semoga tidak pernah berakhir :)



Cheers,
NadDa

over.load.in.g

.tired.

1637

baru dapet 1637words tulisan berisi sampah yang gw sendiri gak tau apa sebenrnya yang gw tulis untuk assignment alc215 ini..
oh God, please help me pass this subject..
oh Edwin, please be nice to me..
oh my Brain and my body, please be patience ..soon we'll get our freedom...
...
talk long,
nadda :(

lagi (lagi) stress karna ALC 215

lagi-lagi saya stress gara2 subject Globalisation and the media.
sekilas tampak gampang. sekilas tampak mudah.
(cuma) bikin 2000 words critical essay ttg article dan analyse sesuai reading.
cultural imperialism. global value. diaspora. bla. bla. bla.
article saya tentang Jewish-Israelis in U.S
identity-culture-bla.bla.bla.

satu kata: P.U.S.I.N.G

can't wait till my freedom!!!!

cheers,
Nadda

strangers

i dont talk to strangers.

Late nite till dawn conversation..

Surprise...
did u read my blog? cause after i post it, u call me and everythin's going to normal again...
happy to have friends like you :)

ignorance.

something from the past,

maybe i hurt him lots,
i hurt him too much
until now,
he pretends to be my friends,
but i know,
deep inside,
he hates me more than everything,
he keep on pretending,
i said "hello"
he act as if he didnt notice me,
i said "sorry"
he said "no worries"
i ask "are u okay?"
he answered " definetely, i am"
i said, "thx for being such a good friends for me"
he answered, "always been my pleasure.."

he never look into my eyes again, smile like my guardian, and protect me from my-damn-sucks-cats-phobia again..

this writing is belong to you, my-dear-unfinished-love-story

i thought, we could make it better but we couldnt
u never see me as ur angel again..
u see me as ur greates enemy..

i smile, it's hard thou

i thought, time will heal ur pain
but it never will..

oh my-dear-unfinished-love-story,
i cant say this words straught to u.
cause u never give me time to talk..

"I am sorry for everything I did, it was my fault..never mean to hurt u. i just have to stop it before everything's going to deep. i knew u are okay without me and now i know that im rite. i was lying at that time, when u hugged me, when ur head near me, when ur hands hold me..it means a lot. but i have to lie at that time, just to make it easier for u..happy for you now :) my aga..."

Now,
it's time for me to finish it by myself.
i already said everything that i need to say to you..
pardon my english, i cant speak mandarin nor dutch..
it will be easier to say it in Bahasa thou,lol :P

Goodbye, my-dear-unfinished-love-story
i'll never disturbing ur life..

Success always,
ur-used-to-be-little-angel
Nadda o:)

my dear..

Dear my only one Journalist,

btabta
btabta
btabta
btabta
btabta
btabtabtabta
btabtabtabta
btabtabtabta

hugs,
Nada

unable to write a good sentences-overload ;p

hi all,
hari ini gw ad in class test jam 10 pagi!! susah banget bangunnya. gak belajar pula..haha
semalem si Tass called me after he got home from the gym. ternyata dy juga belom belajar *gw pikir bule kayak dy bakalan rajin, ternyata sama aja..hehe*
he looked sooooo busy in the past 2 weeks :(
kita janji bakalan belajar, tapi gw gak sanggup. mendingan tidur. tp tidur pun gw gak tenang, kepikiran banget takuuutt failed..huhuhu
in the morning, setelah perang sama kemalesan diri sendiri, gw berangkat ke kelas. posisinya enak. i think the test went well :)

im soo happy..

suddenly, si tass text me, kalo dy kena heart attack waktu pertama kali baca soal2 test nya. gw bingung, harusnya gw yg geblek ini yg panik, eh kok dy yg panik?
ternyata oh ternyata, dy ketiduran beberapa menit setelah pembicaraan panjang dan gak penting itu berakhir, hasilnya? no study at all..

abis itu seperti biasa: MEETING CARNAVAL SOUNDNATION
tapi lumayan gak ngabisin energy sih meeting kali ini, walopun masih ada sedikiiit drama, padahal hari h udah semakin dekattt--wohooooo


someone told me to keep trying, and trying..and i will be fine :-)

*i hope so*

Talk soon,
Nadda

09-09-09

do u know what's so good about today?
the combination of the date today:09-09-09
do u know what's so good about today?
at 09-09-09 at 10pm..
the combination of all the numbers-- 09-09-09-10..

the good things is when i realize u still there..sitting next to me..whispering those words every morning..and looking to my eyes through your specs :))

i wanna close the book, but u are like my twilight series..
everytime i read 1 page, i couldnt stop to read the next page, and the other page..im curious about the story..it is so hard for me to close it :(

im open,

take care darling,
Nada

only God..

only God knows the reason why im here..
only God knows the reason why im caught in the middle of this circle..
only God knows the reason why i get stuck at the moment..
only God knows the reason why im down rite now..
only God knows the reason why i have a really bad feeling about something big..
only God knows the reason why they don't wan to come to the show..

but

God could change nothing into something..
God could help us reach the dream..
God could help us reach the goal..

so Please,
my Dear God,
i really need your help in every second of my life..
i really need your guidance..
i need your sign..

Nada-

things i'll never say..

Da da da da da

Im tugging at my hair
Im pulling at my clothes
Im trying to keep my cool
I know it shows
Im staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
Im searching for the words inside my head
coz Im feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
coz I know youre worth it...youre worth it...yeah

If I could say what I want to say
Id say I want to blow you away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down on one knee...
Marry me today!
Guess Im wishing my life away...
With these things Ill never say

It dont do me any good
Its just a waste of time
What use is it to you, whats on my mind?
If it aint comin out
Were not goin anywhere
So why cant I just tell you that I care?
coz Im feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
coz I know youre worth it...youre worth it...yeah

If I could say what I want to say
Id say I want to blow you away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down on one knee
Marry me today!
Guess Im wishing my life away...
With these things Ill never say


Whats wrong?
With my song?
These words keep slippin away...
I stutter...i stumble
Like Ive got nothin to sa-ay...
coz Im feelin nervous
Tryin to be so perfect
coz I know youre worth it...youre worth it...yeah

Da da da da da da da da da...
Da da da da da da da da da...

Guess Im wishing my life away
With these things Ill never say
If I could say what I want to say
Id say I want to blow you away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down on one knee
Marry me today
Guess Im wishing my life away
With these things Ill never say

With these things Ill never sa...y


*Avril Lavigne

rushing..

acara itu sebentar lagi..
assignment masih numpuk..
kerjaanku gak ada yg beres..
internship belum beres..
time oh time...

split.of.mind.collection.of.time

If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling
with anyone other than you.

- Courtney Kuchta -



I wrote your name in the sky,
but the wind blew it away.
I wrote your name in the sand,
but the waves washed it away.
I wrote your name in my heart,
and forever it will stay.

- Jessica Blade -


All the love that history knows,
is said to be in every rose.
Yet all that could be found in two,
is less than what I feel for you.


There is a dime a dozen...
Then there is one in a million...
But baby, you are once in a lifetime.

- Victor Rodriguez -

Tues-damn-Day

why so serious?

Mon.Day

i love monday.
seriously.
i've got a really good news today.
i really love monday :)

Love,
Nada

RAN and NIDJI LIVE IN MELBOURNE!

Hi guys,
just let u know kalo RAN and NIDJI bakalan concert di melbourne. thanks to PPIA DEAKIN UNIVERSITY Australia yg udah mengusahakan ini semua :)

acara ini akan berlangsung pada tgl 24 September 2009 di FESTIVAL HALL. dengan tema CARNAVAL SOUNDNATION, NIDJI and RAN will spread the carnival's atmosphere in Melbourne this September!!!

we don't need any circus for the carnaval because ALL WE NEED IS ONLY RAN and NIDJI live in MELBOURNE!!

Price of Tix:
VIP: $60 (merchandise, clear view, priority entry 20 min before the show)
On Sale: $25
At the Door: $30

You can purchase it online on www.ticketmaster.com , click on search CARNAVAL SOUNDNATION!!

don't forget to bring your International License/Passport if you purchase a tix for License area. For those who still under 18, you still could enjoy the show and purchase any tix for unlicense area.

Prepare yourself guys, finish your assignment asap before the event.
Bring your date to the event, spread the love and happiness :))

Additional Info:
Pemain RAN lucu2 semua. sedap dipandang mata. gak rugi deh pokoknya ;)

sakit

uhh,
akhirnya badan saya protes juga. gak kuat. akhirnya sakit juga :(
gak enak banget deh. bawaannya tambah sensi ples ansos. i miss my sexylicious, i miss my menawan's friends :(
oh iya, sakit2 gini saya malah melakukan 'kepo' things, uhh jd berasa 'alay2' gt..
semoga saya masih diinget..aminnn...
ud lama gak nulis. gara2 sakit nih, jadinya cm bs upload2 gambar aja. somehow, gambarnya bagus banget..sayaa sangat sukaaa..
umm.. produktivitas menurun. tingkat kemalasan meningkat.
bentar lg kelas gw selesai..sedih deh..
huhuhuuhu..


trying-so-hard-to-cheer-up,
nadda

where is my home?

my Sun is my Home, isn't it?

.moti.vation.

Cheers,
Nada-

pieces of mind, little pics..

C.L.U.E.L.E.S.S ME??

time..

hi all,
hari ini adalah hari ke4 di bulan ramadhan. alhamdulillah, puasa gw masih full, walaupun solat nya masih bolong2,hehehehe

sekarang gw lagi berada dalam tahap gak tau mau nulis apaan, gak tau mau ngapain, dan gak tahu apa2..it's kinda stupid actually, but yeahh this is me!!

besok nico for good, orang pertama yg bakalan gw anter balik karena for good. orang pertama yg udah ngenalin gw ke dunia permelbenan, orang pertama yg bikin gw nyadar bahwa dunia ini begitu sempit. dan orang pertama yg ngasih pengalaman gw naek pesawat warrior selama 2 jam muter2 diatas kota victoria, sambil foto2 diudara, ples apple pie dr mcD yg menemani..i will never forget that experience...

Sukses selalu ya om nicoooo..semogaa ntar kalo gw balik ke indo, pilot nya lo yahhh :)

sedihhh...Om nico kan baik banget, nemenin kita jalan2, nemenin kita shopping, nemenin kita foto2, nemenin kita nonton jason mraz...huhuhu..
knapa harus secepet itu yah for good nya?

sukses yaa buat nicooo,

we gonna miss you so :)




                                                                       @st.kilda beach

Selamat Berpuasa

alhamdulillah, saya masih dipertemukan kembali dengan bulan suci Ramadhan :)
terimakasih ya Allah...

ramadhan kali ini mungkin bukan ramadhan pertama saya jauh dari keluarga. tapi merupakan ramadhan pertama saya di melben. semoga bisa kuat menjalani selama 1 bulan ini. Amiinnn... ^^

udah ah, mau nonton BBF lagi, nanti malam sahur Soup Ayam, nugget, ama Sambel tempe..slurppp :))

Cheers,
Nada-

RedBerry fever!

im in love with RedBerry
hahaha...

redberry gak kalah canggih sama blackberry ;)

cYa,
Nadda

ketika stress melanda..

you belong with me-taylor swift:

You're on the phone with your girlfriend, She's upset
She's going off about something that you said
She doesnt get your humour like I do

I'm in the room, its a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesnt like
And she'll never know your story like I do

But she wears short skirts, I wear t-shirts
She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming bout the day when you'll wake up and find
That what you're lookin for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me
You belong with me

Walkin the streets with you in your worn out jeans
I cant help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on the park bench thinkin to myself
Hey isnt this easy?

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
I havent seen it in awhile, since she brought you down
You say you find I know you better than that
Hey, Whatcha doing with a girl like that?

She wears high heels, I wear sneakers
She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming bout the day when you'll wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standin by, waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know that?
You belong with me
You belong with me

Oh I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're about to cry
I know your favorite songs and you tell me about your dreams
I think I know where you belong. I think I know it's with me.

Can't you see that I'm the one who understand you?
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standing by or waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know that
You belong with me
You belong with me

Have you ever thought just maybe
You belong with me
You belong with me

Entah kenapa, Taylor swift cantik banget. entah kenapa, lagu2nya enak banget, Entah kenapa model video klip nya bule ganteng...

entah kenapa gw jadi gila, pusingg..duh aduh..pengen cepet2 kelar dehh..

entah kenapa hari ini saya kecewa.

tauk ahh..

salam merdeka,
Nadda :)

globalisation and the media

aduhh, subject ini bikin kepala gw nyut2an..
assignment nya bikin maless,, apaan tuh ciritical review dr 2 reading yg sangat amat panjang membosankan dan gak jelas,huhuhu..
masih kurang 1300words lagi..perjalananku masih panjangg dan berliku :(

well, gak sabar menanti datang nya hari senin, karenaaa assignment alc 215 bakalan ud d submit *moga2 kelar besok* daannnnnnn eng ing eng, gw janjiann ketemuan sama senior gw anak 2nd year di Uni, *winkwink blink* dy bakalan ngasih gw semua yap sekali lagi SEMUA assignment dr media and communication sama journalism yang udah pernah dy bikin :))
see, how nice he is??
akhirnya ada org local sini yg sangat baik padaku, senangnya hatiku,huhuhu
biasanya om gugel selalu membantuku, tapi kali ini tidak, tante webmail sama mas blekberi yang membuat semua ini menjadi nyata,huahahahah

S.T.R.E.S.S

strEss

im feeling stress to the MAX!

please dont stop the rain

By James Morrison

i dont know where i crossed the line
was it something that i said or didnt say this time?

and i dont know if it's me or you
but i can see the skies are changing
no longer shades of blue
i dont know which way its gonna go

if it's going to be a rainy day
there's nothing we can do to make it change
we can pray for sunny weather
but that won't stop the rain

you're feeling like you've got no place to run
i can be your shelter 'till its done
we can make this last forever
so please don't stop the rain

let it fall, let it fall, let it fall
please don't stop the rain
let it fall, let it fall, let it fall
please don't stop the rain

i thought that time was on our side
i've put in far too many years to let this pass us by

you see life is a crazy thing
there'll be good times and there'll be bad times
and everything in between
and i don't know which way it's gonna go

if it's going to be a rainy day
there's nothing we can do to make it change
we can pray for sunny weather
but that won't stop the rain

feeling like you've got no place to run
i can be your shelter 'till its done
we can make this last forever
so please don't stop the rain

let it fall, let it fall, let it fall
please don't stop the rain
let it fall, let it fall, let it fall
please don't stop the rain

oh we're a little closer now
in finding what life is all about
yeah, i know you just can't stand it
when things don't go your way
but we've got no control over what happens anyway

feeling like you've got no place to run
i can be your shelter 'till its done
we can make this last forever
so please don't stop the rain

let it fall, let it fall, let it fall
please don't stop the rain
let it fall, let it fall, let it fall
please don't stop the rain

let it fall, let it fall, let it fall
let it fall, let it fall, let it fall
please don't stop the rain


this is an old song, but i like it.

cheers,
Nada

Thursday-morning-fever!

happy thursday all,
setiap kamis pagi gw selalu bangun pagi. bukan karena gw tambah rajin apa gmna, cuma karena gw ada kelas editing and design jam 10pagi. apesnya, setiap malem rabu nya gw selalu tidur dini hari..digangguin sama 2 housemate gila si botak ama si adhy,huhuhu

alhasil, harus bangun pagi, mandi pagi2 di winter yg dingin, muka masih ngantuk dan harus tutorial selama 2 jam. untung Jan harkin adalah salah satu tutor kesayangan gw :)

alhamdulillah, anak2 di kelas itu asik2 semua dan pada baik2 semua, jadi gw seneng banget deh ;)

antara seneng atau sebel, karena hari kamis adalah kelas terakhir gw setiap minggu, i really love Jan harkin, she is the best!!!

b.t.09

Cheers with much love,
Nadda :)

ps: i love my name, it sounds good *narsismodeon*

late night..

tulisan ini sampah,
tapi sampah bisa kita bikin berarti
it depends..rite?

since i dont know what to do in this middle-cold-lonely-late-nite, i decided to write a new post for my personal blog. life's hard and it's getting harder. too many people with too much characters. hate-and-love them anyway :x

maybe i should try to get some sleeps now,

don't stress, Enjoy your weekdays guys,
Nad-

final assignment for ALJ 216

saya lagi gak ada ide buat posting. alhasil, sambil ngerjain tugas alc 102, saya posting feature article ttg Indonesian Cuisine. lumayan lahh nisa nge back up assignment kedua yg telattt banget gara2 kedodolan diri sendiri...

IndoLicious-taste of Indonesian Cuisine

June is coming now and the smell of sensational holiday is ready to accost us. We have to prepare everything to enjoy our vacation in a maximum level. Indonesia is one of the best destinations for holiday. It is the nearest country from Australia. It only takes 5 hours by plane and then we could feel the taste of Asia in Indonesia. If you are afraid about the food in Indonesia, you have to try and explore the various kind of Indonesian culinary first. Fortunately, you will easily find many types of Indonesian restaurants in Melbourne.


The black spicy taste of beef that they called as beef rendang, originally from Padang, West Sumatra, Indonesia could be one of the best choices. Are you a vegetarian? It is not a big problem. You can try the Indonesian salad which is called as Gado-Gado. Linsiana Samawi, owner of Pendowo Limo catering said that Indonesia has various treasure of traditional foods. “It’s easy for me to keep my customers because I always provide different type of Indonesian foods and I still explore more, So, they will not get bore with my dishes”.

With area of approximately 1,890,754 km2 and has population around 218,868791 peoples, Indonesia is rich of food varieties and spices. Almost every part of this country has its own specialty. For example, Sumatra is well known for its extra spicy food. Java, which can be divided into East, Central, and West, tends to offer sweet, spicy, and salty food in those areas respectively.

The massive sum of Indonesian who studied in Melbourne have cause a greater crowd for restaurants that serve Indonesian Menu. When you walk in Swanston Street, do not forget to try Indonesian Dim Sum, called Siomay in Nelayan Restaurant. Basic ingredient for Siomay is Spanish mackerel. People in Indonesia usually called it as ikan tenggiri. They put plain flour and Spanish mackerel together. After they mix all the ingredients, they steam it for 30 minutes. You can taste this delicious food only for $A 8. They serve Siomay with peanut sauces, chili sauces, and sweet soy sauces. It makes the unique taste of Spanish mackerel stronger and delicious than before. Linda Liem, owner of Nelayan Restaurant said that we can modify the basic ingredient of siomay as much as we want. “Usually, we made Siomay from ikan tenggiri, but sometimes we also made Siomay from chicken, prawn, or pork because it’s quite hard for us finding ikan tenggiri in Melbourne,” Said Mrs.Liem. The difference of Indonesian culinary with the other food is they always use dry spices. These dry spices only available in Indonesia. It makes the taste of every food become unique, special, and different with other countries. If siomay is not enough, then you should try to order Lontong Cap Gomeh. Indonesian people frequently consume this food at special occasion like celebrating Chinese New Year. However, as the time goes by, Lontong Cap Gomeh transformed into a common food. We could enjoy Lontong Cap Gomeh anytime we want, we don’t need celebrating something to enjoy this delicious food. Lontong Cap Gomeh is made from special steam rice called lontong. They serve it with pumpkins, eggs, and special soy powder. For the last touch, they give coconut milk as the dressing.


In Indonesia, chicken also becomes a favorite ingredient. Special fried chicken called Ayam Penyet will be a good choice to accompany you on lunch or dinner, alone or with friends. It is not hard to enjoy the delicious taste of ayam penyet in Melbourne. In Berkeley Street Carlton, you have to stop at Garage Café. One portion of Ayam Penyet only for $A 9, 50 will fulfill your thirst of traditional food from Indonesia. A lot of Indonesian student come to eat this food. Ayam Penyet is a fried chicken served with traditional chili sauces and warm rice. One thing that makes this food difference is they batter the chicken with the traditional sauces. The taste of dry herbs is really strong. If you like spicy food, you will get addicted with Ayam Penyet. Special chili sauces in Ayam Penyet were made from fresh chili, salt, tomato, and black shrimp paste. Usually, they call chili sauces as Sambal Terasi because they label black shrimp paste as terasi and use it as a vital part of the ingredient.

Most of Indonesian dishes use chili sauces to make their food more delicious. They think that eating food without chili sauces is not complete. That is why in Indonesian cultures, chili sauce is the most important part for their culinary history. You will surprise even when you come to international restaurants such as McDonald’s and Kentucky Fried Chicken because they provide chili sauces and tomato sauces for free. Their customers could get as much as they want without any extra charge. Dahana Asmara, International students from Indonesia who currently study at Melbourne University major in Cookery said that Indonesian people very love something spicy. “We always like something sweet, salty, and spicy but most of us really loves spicy foods, either it is from chili or from pepper,” Said Dahana. “Indonesian people tend to be more innovative, sometimes they modify chili sauces into other sauces like chili sauces with garlic and onion and it is really delicious, I always miss that special sauces, it is highly recommended,” He added.

Tired with chicken and meat? If you need something healthy, Gado-Gado could be the best choices for lunch. It is Indonesian traditional salad contain with spread bean, spinach, white tofu, soy tempe, chickpea, and mix of vegetables. They mix all of these ingredients with peanut sauces, sweet soy sauces, and again do not forget to add extra chili sauces in this menu. In Kemangi Restaurant at Glenferrie, you only have to spend $A 7, 50 for one plate of delicious Gado – Gado. Jakarta, the capital city of Indonesia is the home of Gado – Gado. When spending your holiday in Jakarta, you have to spend some time for trying Gado – Gado Boplo. “Gado – Gado Boplo is the best restaurant specialist in Gado – Gado, it is a very famous restaurant in Indonesia and you can feel the unique taste of traditional salad from Indonesia,” Said Dahana. “They use garlic and onion specially made from Indonesia for the peanut sauces and it makes the taste of Gado – Gado in Indonesia and Melbourne different,” He highlighted.

Discover culinary in Indonesia is not something easy to do. However, enjoying culinary trip for holiday in Indonesia will be a good idea. You will get different experience and learn something new about Indonesian culinary. The best thing from Indonesia is all food sold in each city are cheap but it tastes good. So, you do not have to worry will spend too much money for this overseas culinary holiday trip. One thing that we should remember is we have to accustom our tongue with dry herbs, something spicy, and salty because it is the characters of Indonesian food.

Indonesia will be the host of Indonesian Traditional Food Festival in Jakarta. If you spend your holiday on June, Remember to come to this festival if you want to enjoy the unique and special taste of traditional food from Asia. This festival will save your time and energy because you don’t have to go around all of big cities in Indonesia to eat traditional Indonesian food. Staff from Indonesian Consulate in Melbourne, Mr. Bemby Sulistyo says, “This upcoming event will be the heaven of traditional food from Indonesia, the customers can taste and learn how to make it at the same time, you will gain more knowledge about Indonesian culinary and feel the historical atmosphere of Indonesian food”.

Before spending your holiday in Indonesia, here is a list of Indonesian Restaurants in Melbourne that can help you easier to adjust the taste of Indonesia.

• Garage Café – 221 Berkeley Street, Carlton, Victoria
• Blok M Express – 380 Lt. Bourke Street, Melbourne, VIC 3000
• Kemangi Indonesian Restaurant – 830 Glenferrie Road, Hawthorn, VIC 3122
• Bamboe Café & Restaurant – 643 Warrigal Road, Chadstone, Victoria
• Garamerica – 230 Dorcas Street, South Melbourne, Victoria
• Es Teler 77 – 319 Swanston Street, Melbourne, VIC 3000
• Nelayan Indonesian Cuisine – 315 Swanston Street, Melbourne, VIC 3000
• Indosari – 1165 Glenhuntly Road, VIC 3163


Having a great time and trying all of special food in other country is a great idea but we also have to consider our health. We have to keep and maintain our body during holiday. Do not eat too much meat with cholesterol and something extra spicy. It will give bad effect to your body. So, for the last words are stays health, enjoy your vacation, and keep explore food in all over the world!

capek

udah tau capek,
udah tau tugas senen disubmit
udah tau tutor nya strict dan peliittt
malah gak dikerjain..
malah onlen gak jelas
malah blogwalking..
malah imel2an gak penting
malah flirting2 gak jelas
duh duh..
what a life!
huahahaha...

ketika yang dulu itu belum selesai...

hi guys,
pernah gak setelah bertahun-tahun lamanya kalian pisah sama seseorang tanpa ada kata perpisahan yang proper dan kalian udah menjalani hidup masing2 dengan tenang, tiba2 orang itu muncul, dan look way better..damn-gorgeous..dan transformed into the most eligible person for you?

nyesel gak?
setelah bertahun2 baru sadar betapa bodohnya kita waktu itu menyia2kannya..

nyesel gak?
knpa waktu itu jadi orang penurut dan nurutin kata2 orang tua?

dan, suddenly, semua kenangan muncul lagi. kenangan gimana waktu tiap malem telpon, kabur diem2 dr rumah untuk makan dideket rumah, jalan kaki liat bintang..

suddenly remember, waktu saya gak pernah mau abisin makanan, dan kamu dengan relanya ngabisin itu,,huahaha

suddenly remember, waktu kamu jemput saya setiap jam pulang sekolah, risky banget..padahal waktu itu sekolah kita musuhan..

suddenly remember, waktu kamu potong rambut dan harus susah payah nutupin modelnya karena dilarang oleh sekolah, tapi saya yang minta model itu...

suddenly remember, waktu kamu dateng ke rumah, dan saya pura2 pergi padahal saya lihat kamu dari jendela atas, saya harus menghindari kamu...

dan..

when you call me your little angel

walaupun sekarang kamu ada di benua yang jauh disana, walaupun waktu siang-malam kita beda, tapii...rasanya, i need to talk to you.. to finish this unfinished love story...

Nad-

wedges,books,assignment, and winter

That's all i have now--
K.A.N.G.E.N
parah :(

anyway, Happy birthdat buat Sheila Almahdaly, semoga dy bikin facebook juga,hehehe...

kim bum

melben emang lagi winter. anehnya, gw malah kena demam kim sang bum alias kim bum. i spent all my day buat nonton boys before flowers, lagi, lagi, dan lagi..hahah
jadi inget jaman sma, pas gw kena demam korea, sampe bisa bahasa korea basic karena belajar dr semua drama yg gw tonton dan belajar tulisan korea karena official website artis kesukaan gw pake tulisan korea,hehehe...

gak nyangka, umur segini gw masiihhhhh bisa kena demam. kali ini pemain baru. bukan jo in sung, bukan kim jae won, bukan lee dong gun. sekarang adalah cowok kelahiran july 1989, kim sang bum alias kim bum :))

sayangnya, dy gak terlalu jadi tokoh sentral. tp gpp, i love the story :)

assignment apa kabar yah??

salam korea,
Nad-

PARASIT by Gita Gutawa

petir membangunkanku
dari mimpi burukku
selama ini ku hanya terperangkap
dalam medan magnetmu

baru kusadari
kau seperti parasit
minta ini itu
kau minta padaku dengan semaumu

cukup sudah ku kini mulai gerah
ku perlu oksigen
untuk aku bernafas
tanpamu

reff:
pergi kau ke ujung dunia
dehidrasi di gurun sahara
hilang di segitiga bermuda

pergi kau ke luar angkasa
hipotermia di kutub utara
hilang di samudra antartika
dan jangan kembali

parasit parasit parasit (parasit)
kau memang parasit
parasit parasit parasit parasit

mulanya malu-malu
lalu jadi benalu
minta ini itu
kau minta padaku dengan semaumu

cukup sudah
ku mulai naik darah
ku seperti bom atom
yang siap meledak karenamu

repeat reff

parasit parasit parasit
kau memang parasit
minta dibayarin
minta ditraktirin
minta dianggarin
minta dijemputin
minta ditelponin
minta di sms-in
minta dibeliin
dasar kau parasit ah…

waiting

yup,
its been like a year gw gak nulis blog yg berisi tulisan2 panjang.
euforia holiday bikin gw jauh sama laptop ini. indonesiaa, i love my country way much..rasanya gw gak pengen tinggal jauh dr orang tua, i mean my lovely mom,hufff

sekarang gw lagi di KLIA, waiting for my next flight to melbourne, tonite...
at first, i couldnt stop these tears, this sun glasses really help in covering my face,huhuhu..

waiting in Malaysia, at KLIA for 7 hours is not a happy thing to do, ditambah internet connection yg gak terlalu cepet, jadi nilai plus keboringan ini.

even worse, gw baru ninggalin nyokap gw selama 4 jam, dan gw udah kangennnn buangettt. ples, tadi di pesawat, sebelah gw adalah ibu2 sama anak remajanya, berduaan. oh my, gw jadi inget nyokap gw :))

unit guide

trimester 2 dimulai..
and i start to print all the unit guide, and suddenly gw pusinggg baca assignmentnya..ahahaha...

postingan dari negri Indonesia

Deal all,
ini adalah postingan dari Indonesia.
uhhh senangnya :))

counting down the days...

selamat hari kamis semuanyaaa...
this week should be my last weekend in melbourne for this trimester. saya sudah melewati exam journalism dengan perut keroncongan dan otak empot2an.
exam nya waktu itu di Box Hill town hall, dan gw ama rivana gak tau tempat nya. suddenly, agnar mengantarkan kita smpe kesana,fyuhhh...
3 jam kemudian, di udara melben yang lagi super dingin gara2 winter, dan gw sedikit bingung dimana sesungguhnya kita berdua, gw dengan gaya sok tau ngajak jalan aja sama rivana, mencari keramaian. fortunately, setelah berjalan beberapa km, gw sudah mengenal lokasi keberadaan kita which is cuma di box hill centre. dan Yammi yammi, sebuah resto korea merupakan secercah harapan untuk menghangatkan badan yg beku.
yap, gw kalap lagi. gw makan super banyak. double portion. malu sih sama si embak2 korea yg ngelayanin, tapi gimana lgi? makanannya super enak sekali, mantappp..

abis itu, disibukkan oleh our big project. belum boleh cerita2 nih. nanti kalo udah keluar teaser nya, gw pasti akan selalu update the latest news about this project *i promise*

semalem ke city, eh eh tiba2 di perjalanan pulang, tepatnya di toraak road, ban mobil kena paku, jiahh..parah banget. mana dsni kagak ada tukang tambal ban..tapi akhirnya kita survive, setelah beberapa lama harus melawan dingin untuk mengganti ban dengan dongkrak yang sama sekali gak bersahabat *kata si botak*

hari ini, mau belajar buat exam hari senin...syubidu bidu bidu...

hari ini mau edit cover biar jadi lebih cantik ples bikin mou sebelum hari senin..aduuhhh banyak banget sih yg harus gw lakuin,hikshikshiks...

SHOPPING dijadwalkan besok alias hari jumat...

udah dulu ah, mau mandi..

coldysweezy smiley,
Nad-

Contemporary Journalism: The Daily Miracle

bangun tidur, kliyengan...
ujian tinggal menghitung hari..
semakin kliyengan waktu baca bahan exam nya,

Section A: News Writing exercise : write 500 words news story suitable for publication in a newspaper from the information and interviews detailed below. you dont need to include a headline for the story.

Section B: Below is a Newsflash about fictional breaking story. where would you look for information, who would you seek to interview and what would you ask them to check out and develop the story?--5 secondary sources and 5 primary sources. explain in no more than 500 words

Section C:Essay--write one essay no more than 800 words from the following topic (The Australian news media, Convergence, The future of Journalism) illustrate your discussion with examples where possible. if you answer more than question only your first answer will be marked.


dan semua itu harus gw lakukan dalam waktu 3 jam, handwritten dan tanpa bantuan internet.hikshiks. even real journalists could use google rite? oh kejam nya dunia...

Dear Mr. Bryce,
could you please announce that on Tuesday, 9th of June 2009 there will no activities including EXAM in all over AUSTRALIA? and also tell my tutor, John Lawrence and my Unit Chair, Paul Bethell that all Journalism students will automatically pass the contemporary journalism's subject without doing any exam.
Many Regards,
a-crazy-hopeless-deakin-uni-students


semoga, Mr. Bryce sang Governor-General bisa mengabulkan surat gw,amiiinnn

kliyeng2Smile,
Nad♥

si Ratu Lebah

terinspirasi dari lagunya RAN - Ratu lebah,
.."bila aku RATU LEBAHMU, akankah kau jadi rajaku"..
.."bila suatu hari nanti, berdua kita kan pergi, akankah kau ajak ku terbang untuk menyambut, MENTARI.."

picture taken from www.detikhot.com

Mabok Rescy,Facebook,Tugas,dan Ujian

dear all,
iyeps betul skali. saya sedang mabok. mabok maenan rescy. gw terobsesi jadi peringkat pertama dengan resto super mewah, tapi gara2 3 hari ini internet down, gw absen maen. langsungggg dehhh peringkat gw meluncur turuuunnn banget,hikshiks.
gw juga lagi mabok facebook. seperti kebanyakan orang, mau tidur fb, bangun tidur fb, mau ngerjain tugas fb, lg duduk gak ada kerjaan fb juga. aduuuhhhh hidup kok isinya fb :p
for the last two words, gw bener2 gak suka!
mabok mau muntah, mabok tugas ples mabok ujian. bener deh, suddenly, i miss my childhood era T.T
tuhh kan, kenapa Allah mengharamkan mabok2an..karena mabok2an tuh bikin stress beratt yang berakibat fatal terutama mental kita. atau mental gw yah?hehehehe...
anyway, gw sedang berpikir kenapa anak2 high school jaman sekarang pada gede2 semua yak badannya?mukanya juga pada tuwir2 gt? uhh jadi iri...hihihi

udah ah, have to finish my assignment sebelum matahari tenggelam nih ;)
wish me luck, pray for me,,

kissy smile,
Nad-cup*

quick update

yup quick update sebelum mandi buat siap2 pergi ke Deakin,
1. Baru minjem laptop nya rivana, karena internet dkamar gw lagi down,
2. baru bisa check facebook dan mendapati status relationship gw tb2 berubah dr single ke in a relationship---what the hell is going on??? gw bahkan gak bisa buka facebook lah kok status gw tb2 berubah, kacrutttt....
3. baru pusing last assignment blom kelar
4. baru pusing gimana caranya dapet duit banyak buat big project--syududududu
5. baru mau mandi--gyahahahahaha

pusink smile,
Nad-

my new slogan!

hasil dari perbincangan di suatu malam bersama rivana dan okky,
.."a moment in the lips, forever in the heaps"..
aliasss makannya bentar, enaknya juga bentar, tapii genduttnya selamanya...
duh, i have to stop! i have to control myself!

hasil dari perbincangan di dini hari bersama shandy,
.."lo sih terlalu banyak bersenang - senang dan gak fokus.."
duh gimana ya caranya biar fokus???

aduhh, udah jam 2 pagi and i still have 300words to go for my last assignment in this semester--wohoooo

sleepy smile,
Nad-

Ramen Ya: Episode Sahabat

dear suday all,
report untuk saturday nite kemaren nihhh..
gw, rivana, rhesa,ali pergi ke city sekitar jam 6pm gt untuk ketemuan sama kristo,dll di Red Silk Restaurant.
melben kemaren dingin banget, rasanya kalo saat itu ada toko baju buka, gw bakalan langsung beli coat deh, jaket tipis gw gak terlalu kuat meanhan dinginnya udara malam itu--hayahhh...
abis dari situ, kita mau nongkrong di maxB, a cup of hot chocolate mungkin bisa menghangatkn badan, tapi berhubung penuh kita akhirnya pergi ke San Churro, gw pesen Hot and Cold Chocolate.. tapii baruu aja pesenan gw nyampe, si Danna udah nelpon rivana marah2, karena kita belum dateng ke Ramen ya, rivana marah ke gw, gw marah ke rivana karena gak mau sabar..huff, alhasil gw tinggalin aja tu a cup of hot and cold gw, sama sekali belum gw sentuh cing!di perjalanan menuju Ramen Ya, gw ama rivana ketawa2 lagi, sambil menahan kesal ke si Danna..
pas udah nyampe, ternyata si Danna nipu kita..inFamous belum maen, sialaaannnnn..kacruttt bangettt!!!!!
tapi ya sudah lah yaaa...cukup tau saja--hahahhaha
Malem itu sekalian malam perpisahan nya si swarna, vocalist nya Tunas Jaya, band yg maen disitu, karena dy mau for good alias balik ke Indo..sedih yahh :(



Perfect Me-Part
belakangan ini gw mulai menata hidup gw kembali,
persiapan buat pindah ke city, next trimester cari kerja, next holiday kerja di koran, sampai melanjutkan S2 di negara lain atau tetep stays in Melbourne, nyoba2 beasiswa juga deh,hehehehe..
yak, that's part of my dream, my future..

halo masa depanku apa kabarmu disana?

coldy smile- kiss kiss,
Nad-

Random Things..

aku ingin mencuri bulan yang senantiasa menerangi malam-malam dinginmu itu..
aku ingin menangkap matahari yang setia menghangatkan cerahnya hari-harimu..
aku ingin menjadi bagian dari semua bahagia, duka, canda, tangis, dan tawamu..
aku ingin kau menjadi pemilik setiap detik kerinduanku..
aku ingin memiliki semua rasa rindumu itu..
aku ingin menembus awan dan menggapai bintang disisimu selalu..
aku ingin menghiasi mimpi-mimpi dalam bunga tidurmu..
aku ingin memilikimu seutuhnya, bukan dalam anganku, bukan dalam mimpiku, bukan hanya dalam duniaku..
karena..
aku ingin kamu



Salamku untukMu,
Nad-

The song

umm maybe 3 weeks ago,
i heard this song inside someone's car..
The Script- The Man who can't be moved

i heard it 3 times in a row, this song is really important for me--kyahahahahha...
saat ini pun gw ngetik sambil diiringi lagu yg cukup menyedihkan ini. tapi, anehnya hati gw lagi happy. gw mendapatkan sebuah berita pengakuan ketika mendengarkan lagu ini juga,hahaha..setelah sekian lama, ditengah udara melben yang super dingin, ditengah assignment yg belum selesai, disaat gw masih maen restaurant city, jam 5 sore, one sentence, 3 words from him, makes me laugh and happy and shy at the same time ;))



actually, meaning di lagu ini sama sekali gak ada hubungannya sama apa yg baru aja diungkapkan. tapi tetep aja gak mengurangi kecintaan gw sama lagu ini.

gw gak pernah bermimpi untuk dapat mewujudkan semua mimpi2 gw karena gw tau banget batas dan kemampuan diri gw yg bego ini. tapi, disaat gw hampir menyalahkan Allah karena gw menganggap Allah salah mengirim orang dalam doa2 gw, ternyata Allah gak pernah salah, Allah hanya menguji dan menunda saja. Allah mengirimkan orang yg salah untuk mengirimkan orang yang baik sesudahnya, orang yang selalu ada disetiap doa2 malam gw :)

kunci sudah ditangan, pintu sudah terbuka, tapi aku tak pernah berani untuk melangkah...

anyway, 17 days to go..
kiss kiss, smile smile,
Nad-

first day of this week

uhh..im doing my assignment--writing a feature article about indonesian culinary, 1300words to go...

now, i couldn't stop thinking about those-crap-things--dubidubidam.syalala.
pusink.pusink.ah.ah.pusink.pusink

cheers,
Nad-*cup

last weekend

minggu2 exam udah menyapa. beruntungnya gw sebagai anak arts, jadi jarang exam. tapi untuk trimester ini, gw dikasih 2 exam yg subjectnya adalah contemporary journalism ama principles of PR. huhuhu..wish me luck yah *.*
2 subject sisanya berarti ASSignmenttttttssss..
hikshiks, gw harus bertarung bikin article buat research for writer biar bs pass this subject, untuk men cover ketololan gw lupa due date di 2nd assignment. topicnya sih gw berencana bikin ttg indonesian culinary..yippi..i love foods!!!
assignment alc 101, gw harus milih pertanyaan mana yg mau gw ambil, tp due nya masih 8 june sihhhh..so, gw bikin yg alj 216 dulu lahh yaaa..semangaattt gw membaraa nih :))

weekend ini adalah weekend terakhir gw bersenang-senang. gw pergi ke garage cafe, dsna ada acara namanya MAHIBRA alias malam hiburan rakyat. ajang kumpul2nya anak2 indo gitu. lucunya, band2 yg nyanyi pada dangdutan semuaaaa, dan gw ketawa puas bgt ngeliatin anak2 indo yg udah dandan rapi2 tapi joget nya ala dangdut. si esta ama nico sempet narik gw yg dg nikmatnya duduk ngeliatin kehebohan di garage, tangan kanan gw ditarik esta ama nico sedangkan tangan kiri gw dtarik agnar untuk menyelamatkan gw dr lubang kedangdutan,hahaha...

melbie digoyaaangg,ser aserr serr serr..
sekarang hati gw yg digoyang ser aserr serr sama deakin, duhhhh semoga saya bisa pass all these subjects..amiinnn

Malaysian Airlines-thx for giving me a good price and a good schedule :))

smell ya later,
bigkisbighug, Nad-

shopping time!

ahaha,
i love monday! assignment alr 103 yg terakhir udah di submit langsung ke tangan Ross. dan hari ini di tute, si Ross tumben banget gak pake setelan jas. dy pake kemja item lengan panjang sambal celana item semi bahan. waw! he looked so-damn-gorgeous in his age!! biasanya emang oke sih, tapi mungkin karena gw ud 2 minggu skip all his classes, jadi tadi kayak cling cling ajahh :))
one of my BUle's friend yg gw lupa namanya, cowok gitu sebut saja Mikey, hari ini dy baru dateng dr manchester dan langsung masuk kelas. dy juga kelihatan fresh banget! pake coat, dan tetep pinter, jarang2 ada cowok ambil PR dan pinter.. pokoknya hari ini di deakin full of amazing people, including me and rivana ;p




besok, gw mau ke city. its girls day out! skip lecturer alc 101, gw ama rivana bakal start jam 10amish, ke collin street, bayar ticket. abis itu lanjut shopping! setelah berkutat dengan assignments yang bikin rambut keriting,semoga gw dapet banyak barang lucuuu!!!...


ahahaha, gw senaaangggg ^^

kisskiss-Nad

Ramen Ya: Episode lagi in Love

Quick Update:
last nite i went to Ramen Ya at GPO.
kali ini episode lagi in love, dan gak tau kenapa gw makan banyaaakk banget disana. semalem itu yang dateng rameee banget. lebih rame dari malem - malem sebelumnya. hampir semua yang gw kenal lagi dateng. oh iya, si danna juga ngenalin gw ke si dimas lagi..fyuhhh kocakk. isinya makan, ngobrol, foto2, pipis ^^

kelar dai Ramen Ya, lanjut ke collins square kalo gak salah namanya,hehehe..
nge wine lagi, bisa2 bukan cuma pipi yang membesar tapi perut juga gara2 tiap minggu minum wine. aduh duh duh....


okay, gotta do my assignment..wish me luck
kiss kiss-Nad

outside my box..

inside the box:
gw lagi membayangkan memiliki sebuah kotak yang ukurannya enggak terlalu besar. tapi cukup besar untuk menyimpan semua pikiran2, kenangan2, tangisan2, dll deh pokoknya...
ketika kotak itu gw pegang dengan kedua tangan gw, entah mengapa satu persatu isinya mulai membaur, melebur, dan menyatu. gw gak tau pasti bagian mana yang paling dominan dan berperan penting dalam proses penyatuan tersebut, yang pasti..umm..gw bingung. gw stuck. titik. prosesnya belum berhenti. kalo ada tempat penitipan barang, mungkin gw akan menitipkan kotak gw itu, siapa tau gw jadi terhindar dari rasa sakit akibat proses pembauran tersebut.

outside my box:
kosong.


gilaaa, bahkan buat menulis di blog aja gw susah banget banget banget. kenapa yah? what is wrong with me??? i get stuck with my last principle and practice of PR's assignment. defining 4 target publics by answered 6 questions become my biggest nightmare. i skip that stage and continue to the strategy concept, but still...i really really have no idea what should i do with this case. im getting bored with RMIT University, i dont wanna be their PR..uuhhhhhhhhhhh...

catch you all later,
kisskiss,
Nad-

susahnya--fyuhhh

dateng lagi..kepikiran lagi..fyuhh lagi :s

kalau..

kalau saya gak mikirin apa kata orang2, mungkin saya bakal bilang iya detik itu juga..
kalo saya gak mikirin masa depan saya mungkin bs lebih cerah, mungkin saya bisa langsung luluh gitu aja..
kalo saya hanya mendengarkan kata2 ego saya, mungkin saya akan membuka tangan selebar mungkin buat dia..
kalau saja saya berhasil menemukan penggantinya, mungkin saya akan berhenti berpikir dy orang yg baik buat saya..

my promise..

counting down the days....
39 days to go...
yippi...

to do lists before 'that' day:
1.assignment making sense of text, image and meaning- 2000words essay due on monday..
2.assignment principles and practice of PR- 8 step pr planning analysis RMIT case..
3.Writing fEature article- 1500words article.. *my last alj 216's assignment*
4.assignment alc 101 (again)
5. Exam!!! cOntemporary journalism pless Practices of PR
6.Shopping!! cari kadooo buat si mamih, dellah, ayahh
7.Shopping lagi- buat melebarkan sayap!!
8.Get over him--hahahahaha

pantang tepar...sebelum kelar!!

"aku kangen. aku kangen. aku kangen"

helloww,
besok adalah due assignment contemporary journalism gw dan yup gw belom menyelesaikannya. ternyata menyalin hasil wawancara itu ribet juga yak apalagi kalo ada yg harus kita make up sendiri,hehehehe

eniwei, how was your day all?
pagi ini begitu bangun tidur, hal yang pertama gw lakukan adalah menelpon nyokap gw. today is her birthday and i really really wish i could stand in her side, hug her tight..but i couldnt :(
thusrday is my day off, jadi seharian di rumah ajahhh. harusnya sih ngerjain assignment. tapi yang ada malah facebooking, chatting, etcetera, etcetera..hufff
yak, PANTANG TEPAR SEBELUM KELAR!! malam ini assignment harus jadi, karena 2 assignments lain masih menanti untuk dijamahhh *semangaaatttt*
ternyata, gw masih bisa mencintai melbourne dengan atau tanpa orang lain disisi gw..
so never under estimate ur own power guys, gw pikir gw gak mampu, gw pikir gw lemah, ternyata gw gak selemah yg gw bayangkan :))


okay, lanjut ngerjain assignment lagi ahhh...
byebye
Nad-

Ramen Ya: episode Roti bakar coklat keju + kopi panas!

fyuhhh,,
capekkk.
capekk..
gw baru abis dr Ramen Ya nontonin band nya nico maen.
*yap ada lelaki yg fotonya memenuhi kamera nya fabrian juga*
and u know what? hari ini bener2 deh Ramen Ya jadi saksi. saksi bisu tingkah bodoh gw.
mas andhu ngenalin gw ke dimas. uhhh dan bodohnya begitu kenalan, gw lngsung kabur, ngacirrr gt ajaahh. i wish i could turn back the time and do the rite things!

harusnya gw ngobrol dan bersikap biasa aja. tapi cuaca yg dingin, ples jantung deg2an gak siap diserang menghasilkan tingkah bodoh gw. saat itu, yg ada di otak gw adalah kabur gitu aja. kabur sejauh - jauhnya dari si mahluk bernama dimas inihhh..

mungkin, someday..kita bisa melakukan hal yg lebih 'benar'...

wah Ramen Ya..tak kan terlupa...

aku capek!

aku capek nungguin kamu tiap tengah malem,,
aku capek harus megangin hp setiap saat takut kamu marah kalo aku gak angkat telpon,,
aku capek dengerin kamu bilang aku orang yang super baik,,
aku capek jadi orang pengertian disaat kamu lari2 sana sini,,
aku capek kamu kata2in,,
aku capek mikirin kamu muter2 di otakku,,
aku capek bilang 'iya' dengan semua janji2 kamu,,
aku capek ngurusin kamu yang super ajaib,,
aku capek perang sama ego marahku sendiri,,
aku capek bilang 'gak papa kok, santai aja..' padahal aku gak santai,,
aku capek sama perasaanku ke kamu,,
aku capek nerima kamu pulang-pergi,,
aku capek sama hubungan kita,,
tapi
aku gak capek sayang sama kamu..

songs of the day

list for today's songs:
1. Love story - Taylor swift
2. Bukan cinta biasa - Afgan
3. Mudah saja - SO7
4. teruskanlah - Agnes Monikahhh
5. Just Dance - Lady GaGa


phewwww,, assignment gak kelar2--karena gak saya kerjain...

WETnesday!

hari ini melben dingin.
pagi ini saya juga merasa dingin.
bangun tidur dr apartment, berharap bs punya pintu kemana aja ke burwood jadi gak bikin si agnar nunggu selama 3 jam di depan rumah gw :(
pikiran gw melayang kemana2..
assignments banyak,susah,ribet,
saya harus mulai research dr awal lagi..

kata rivana, sekarang saya berubah menjadi orang yg gak se Fun dulu sebelum ketemu agnar..
kata agnar, si Imung bilang saya Nadya banget *mantannya agnar* cara ngomong dan lembut2nya..
kata agnar lagi, ini kayak ada sepotong kain yg dipotong jadi 2, which is me and nadya, dan agnar dapet dua2 nya..
kata adhy, saya harus berubah jadi lebih tegas!
kata diri saya, saya ingin hidup normal...

hari ini gw jempol kiri gw kejepit pintu paraahh banget,jadi di tengah2 kuku gw ada kuteks alami yaitu darah beku yang terus2an senat senut di jempol gw.
sakitnya gak ilang2 even kejadiannya udah 8 jam yg lalu..
mungkin sakit yang sama lagi dialami bagian lain dr diri gw..haha :))

beneran deh, life is not as easy as i think...
huff :s

burung-burung selamat pagii

qatrunnada nisrina salma mengucapkan selamat pagiii buat semuanya :))

yap, mungkin saya terlihat bahagia.
ya saya kelihatan bahagia dan santai saja.
tapii,
apa yg kita lihat belum tentu sama seperti apa yg terjadi sebenarnya, betulll?!

to do lists today:
1. 10amish lecturer alc 101
2. 4pmish tutorial alc 101

tapiii...

i wanna skip all those classes, jadi

to do lists nya berubah menjadi:

1. 10amish ngembaliin buku ke library
2. ketemu Paul Bethell, Unit chair..minta surat jalan untuk interview
3. nemenin rivana ke australian immigration buat interview di LONSDALE st :))
4. ngintip Lt. Lonsdale ;p hahaha
5. Mungkin gw bs ke Department of Public Transport juga buat interview??
6. Baca buku Contemporary communication lagi
7. memutuskan question mana yg gw pilih buat 2nd assignment of alc 101--2000words anylisis--huffffffffff
8. Mandi dan keramas sebelum melakukan 7 hal diatas :))







the answers of the day: "saya mau ke rumah teman di burwood.."

kiss kiss-Nad

this cold monday

first day of this week,
monday.
the cold day.
im facing the cold you (again).
im thinking to end all this shit-things.
but im afraid...
gimme back my normal life,please?
i remember how great my life was...(without knowing you)

Dear, DEAKIN Uni...
could you please make my life easier without giving me those ASSignments?


well, the best questions for this week: "Kamu gak ilfil yah?"



thousand Kisses,
Nad-

Kissing..

picture taken from http://i23.tinypic.com

“Kissing is like drinking salted water: you drink and your thirst increases” - chinese proverbs quotes -

“Kissing is a means of getting two people so close together that they can't see anything wrong with each other.” -Rene Yasenek-

“I can't read lips unless they're touching mine.” -Joan Troast-

guten morgen!

selamat pagiiii :))

hari ini hari sabtu, nanti malem berencana dateng ke kemangi restaurant buat nonton bandnya nico ama mas andhu maen. huff, pasti gw dijadiin bahan celaan lagi...
eniwei, gw lagi pengen nge post lirik lagu ikan laut nih:

ikan laut- musisi jalanan feat GIGI

coba, coba kau buka sepatumu
lekas, lekas kau buka bajumu
cepat, cepat larilah padaku
mari, mari berenang denganku

lihat, lihat perahu layar laju
burung-burung putih terbang jauh
Bunga laut seindah bunga melati
bagai tempat mandi bidadari

gelombang beriring
angin laut membelai seakan merayu
gemercing nan bening
ikan laut pun menari di bawah lenganku

Hari-hari seindah lukisan
bagai pohon bertunas impian
jangan, janganlah kita lepaskan
Buruk kenangan dalam lukisan

Janganlah kau ragu
Menyelamlah lalu berpelukan denganku
tiada yg tahu
ikan laut pun pasti lari karena malu

cepat, cepat larilah padaku
mari, marilah kita bercumbu
telah lama kurindu kau selalu
bermesraan dalam laut biru

*taken from http://www.gugalyrics.com*


happy weekend all :))
bigkissbighug,
Nad-

random things..

hari ini hari kamis,
gw off kuliah..
tapi tetep on 'mikirin' assignment..
gw juga tetep on 'mikirin' hidup gw yang semakin gak jelas ke arah mana sekarang..
too much things to do..
too much things to deal with..

review liburan ples liputan tentang jason mraz concert harus gw pending dulu deh, masih malesss nulis,hehehe

eniwei,

*i'm yours..as always.. :)) *





smell ya later,
bigHugbigKiss
Nad-

quick update with random things..

in 5 minutes later, im going to city..and i miss you already...

capek

abis terbang,jalan2,nonton,shopping..
besok pagi ke great ocean road
besok agnar mau ketemu
huff--kesallll
:s

Songs of the day

the lists for today's song:

1. Sleep - My Chemical Romance
2. 7 years - Saosin
3. Hurt - Christina aguilera
4. i would never - Mocca
5. My Confession - Afgan
6. Biru - Delon Version

aku dan nafsu makanku..

"bajuku dulu tak begini tapi kini tak cukup lagi.."

yah mungkin baju gw masih cukup. tapi oh tapi..pipi gw semakin menggelembung. gw merasa sperti ikan balon-fugu-fugu-fugu...

gw emang tukang makan, tapi biasanya porsi nya sedikit namun sering. lah sekarang? porsi banyak dan sering. rasanya hidup gw gak lengkap tanpa olahraga mulut dan perut alias MAKAN!

DemOhDem, gimana ya caranya menghentikan otak dan pikiran gw yang selalu dan selalu berisi tentang makanan?

resolusi tahun ini mungkin akan bertambah : OLAH RAGA; pengecilan perut; pelangsingan pipi

okay, enough ngomongin tentang makanan sekarang waktunya mereview hari ini..

Monday, masih diliputi suasana easter holiday. tadinya gw ama rivana berencana cabut ke chadstone shopping centre. gw mau beli beberapa sabun, lotion, moisturizer, dan makanan tentunya! tapi oh tapi dengar2 masih pada tutup, alhasil batal dehhhh..

pagi ini gw juga gak ngerjain weekly quiz buat subject ALJ 111. salah gw nihhh, gw pikir available until 1pm. ternyataa 1 am---kampret
pokoknya pagi ini adalah pagi yang aneh *ciririripa*

menu special hari ini:

jadi Bank di permainan monopoli bersama anak2

aduh sumpah deh postingan kali ini bener bner out of the track. gak fokus sama sekalii. gw lagi gak punya ide buat menulis nih--snifsniff

smell ya later,
bigHugbigKiss
Nad-

song of the day

here are the lists for today:

1. Always be my baby - David cook
2. Melepasmu - Drive
3. Bila rasaku ini rasamu - Kerispatih
4. Demi Cinta - Kerispatih
5. Antara ada dan Tiada - Utopia
6. Tak lekang oleh waktu - Kerispatih
7. Kiss - Because i am a girl


ps: dont ask me why those songs are in my lists for today..it just suits me...

always be my baby - david cook

We were as one, babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free, yeah
So I'm letting you fly
'cause I know in my heart, babe
Our love will never die, no

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl, don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way, you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry, no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave, girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably,
You'll be back again
'Cause you know in your heart, babe
Our love will never end, no

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl, don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way, you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

I know that you'll be back, girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder, oh, oh
I know that you'll be right back, baby
Oh baby, believe me, it's only a matter of time

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl, don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way, you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my, my baby

(You'll always be a part of me)
You will always be
(I'm part of you indefinitely
(Girl, don't you know you can't escape me)
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
(And we'll linger on)
We will linger on
(Time can't erase a feeling this strong
(No way, you're never gonna shake me
(Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby)

Always be my baby...

titik terendah

kali ini,

hari ini,

malam ini,

untuk pertama kalinya sejak pertemuan itu tidak ada hubungan lagi diantara kita...

saya seperti orang limbung, linglung, dan bingung...

saya coba mengalihkan perhatian ke hal lain..

perhatian saya bisa berubah tapi pikiran saya hanya jalan di tempat

saya bertanya apa yang terjadi?

kenapa semua serba kebetulan seperti ini?

disaat saya akan memutuskan untuk menghentikan, disaat yang bersamaan roda itu berhenti dengan sendirinya..

saya tidak mengerti apa yg sesungguhnya terjadi,

apakah ada sesuatu yang tidak saya ketahui?

apakah ada sesuatu yang ditutupi dari saya?

saya benar2 bingung, saya ingin tahu...

saya terlalu lemah untuk menghadapi kenyataan

saya perlu banyak belajar..

saya ingin menangis

tapi saya tidak bisa

kenapa ya?

apa yang harus saya lakukan?

apa yang sanggup saya lakukan jika menangis pun saya tidak sanggup?

random thought..

dont be too easy..

jangan gampangan..

huf  :s

pusink

saya pusing..

saya takut kehilangan

walaupun saya tau saya salah..

saya tetap ingin bersamanya

saya sadar saya buta..

tapi saya takut mengambil keputusan

saya takut perubahan

saya takut menjadi dewasa...

the second saturday nite..or the third?

dear all,,

"this is the second or the third saturday nite *im not really sure* since he promises me something..."

gw bertanya pada diri gw sendiri :

sampe kapan yah gw mampu bertahan dengan keadaan seperti ini?

gw manusia yang punya limit, sampe kapan gw mampu menunggu?

kapan ya gw bs memutuskan sesuatu dengan jelas dan tegas??

God, please show me Your way....

nite,
kiss kiss-Nad
xoxo