Same Place, Different Feeling

My Thursday is no longer the same. Remember when I wrote a post about middle moment about Thursday here? I don't have it anymore.

They stole my middle moment. Here I write a post using the same laptop, in the same table, same chair, same office. But somehow, it feels really really different...

Maybe because the one who sit on my right side is no longer kak Dinda and the one who sit on my left side is no longer Dili. No more 2.47pm dirty talk, no more laugh, no more McDonald's delivery for crunchy (gosh, I am in tears when I write this...)

Well, I have deal with so many 'goodbyes' and 'farewell' but this changes is just happen too fast for me. I always think that I am a strong person, I can live alone anywhere as long as it's clean tho :P
However, I never have this kind of feeling before. I feel like the world is spinning but I keep on stand still. I feel like everyone is changing but I am not. Everyone move forward but I keep on silence watching them grow up.

I need to move on and let go the past. Unfortunately, I am not the kind of person that forget easily. I remember every memory, every moment, every laugh, every tears, every sweat..(OK, mulai lebay).. I remember everything that really enjoyed me in the past.

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We are the LFC Academy girls that night..

First week of work as a Team

Friday Training

 I miss those moments. I miss a feeling called 'TEAM'.

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That was one of my really precious moments and feelings. Today, I realize, my heart and feelings about the past is like this building, it won't change although the people changes. I think I still live in the past, that is why my feeling in present is different although I sit in the same place..

Good luck and best wishes for my right and left side, Ms. A and Ms. Dils...

XOXO- NS

Hello (again) Melbourne!

This is not my first time come to melbourne. But I feel this time is really harder than before. People I knew and loved already back for good..

However, I feel blessed because I still have my man beside me. well, not physically but technology makes it more real! thanks to skype, oovoo, and internet!!

and I guess what Yliack have said on dinner tonite is right. "Life is about making decision". I chose to live here, school here, and I gotta go through everything here. I have to finish what I have just start with smile :) This is my decision and I am sure I could pass everything..

Love,

Nad- xx

Lesson from the past (dedicated to my Bestfriend)

Happy easter holiday everyone,

iseng-iseng buka email lama, ngunjungin blog lama gue, buka message di friendster. surprisingly, gue nemu message yg membawa gue ke sebuah blog dr seorang masa lalu. salah satu isinya adalah tulisan ketika hubungan kami berakhir. Ini salah satu post nya (aslinya memang ditulis warna merah):

Finally..

February 19th, by ******** *****

More than 2 years, you gave me the world…more than 2 years,you set the greatest memory i’ve ever known.. But I’m sorry i have to end this..coz i know that it is much more better if i do my way and you do ur way..thanks for memory .. im sorry i can’t be as perfect as u want..hope u have a great time then

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lucu juga ya kalo baca tulisan itu sekarang. well, kalo bacanya dulu2 mah udah nangis bombay tapi ternyata tulisan dia ada benernya juga. It's better if i do my way and you do your way. hasilnya? much much much better :)) i have finally found someone who give me a great time everyday and so does he. Tapi, dari hubungan itu gue belajar untuk menjadi orang yg lebih baik lagi ketika menjalani hubungan2 selanjutnya. Glad, we finish the story with a happy ending i guess.. Have a great life everyone, for those people who feel a broken heart, trust me that all the pain you feel now will be healed in some other perfect time. God will give you happiness after sadness, and you will remember your memory and pain without tears but with one big smile..

Be strong Ajeng,

much love.. Nadda :)

Gratitude..

Short Conversations between Rory and Lorelai in Gilmore Girls, and I love it!

Rory: "I'm so stupid, i said thank you."

Lorelai: :When did you say thank you?"

Rory: "When he kissed me."

Lorelai: "What? He kissed you again? What is he, just out of prison or something?”

Hi All,

it's been a long time im not updating anything. this is my first post in Melbourne this year. A lot of something new. new house, new room, new housemates, new subjects, new friends, and the most important thing is a new partner-in-love slash boyfriends. :)

Everything going so fast and I try to understand it slowly,hehehe..

my life is wonderful now. I am happy with him. although there is still 1 issues that i couldnt tell ya that makes me a little insecure about my relationship. I really hope Alloh could open his heart, i dont know.. I won't push him but I always pray for him. I love you too much my dear :)

despite from all those uncertain things, I am happy with my life now. I really Thank Alloh for all this beautiful things. Cant stop saying Alhamdulillah..

gotta back to my work,

review and review..

love,

Nad-